Guess Youliang's right. SHIT HAPPENS.

It sucks when you know you're always considered inferior when comparison is made between your siblings and you. But it sucks even more when you actually really agree that you're never gonna be better or even just as good as them. Hell yeah I know it. But can't you see? I have my own life to lead. I'm not anyone but myself. Well, then I'm sorry to say that I haven't been the daughter you wished I could be. I'm sorry i haven't been meeting expectations. I'm sorry I'm so incapable. I'm sorry I've been useless and you wished you hadn't had me.

Because if only I had the courage, I would choose to end this meaningless life too.

Happy national day. (Not.)